So here I am again, for all two of you who might see this! So be it, haha. As the title suggests, this blog looks fairly-well abandoned. It is. It… was, rather. With any sort of luck I will dedicate myself to this on a higher priority than before. Since this is a return blog, I don’t really have any sort theme or anything like that appropriated for it. In fact, it is likely that I might not even use the same format that I did before. Might, might not, I’m not certain. WE”LL SEE! This is simply here to inform you that I did not die, as grim as that might sound. But if you think about it objectively it makes sense. I am an often times conflicted individual with a backhistory of self-harm, would it really be that much of a stretch?
So what happened? A lot of nothing, to be perfectly honest. But for full transparency, I kind of decided to avoid taking part in this blog. I was not doing too hot. I kept having panic attacks, et cetera. During an emergency (it was purely emotional, I didn’t harm myself) in late July, I agreed with my doctor that trying to scuba dive into the quicksand that is my past was wearing me out. I was really, really trying to look into my past. Which is good, but I think I was really trying to force myself to look at the ugly, at a time when I wasn’t doing well enough to look at the current issues in my life. But I honestly always thought, that to move more smoothly toward the future one must fully recognize and decently accept their past.
While I still have zero clue on how to make amends with who I was and what happened to me, I think that maybe I could try to shape and like who and what I am now.
*Shrugs* ^_^
Seasons of the Which 