I come from a very different place than I have in my last few posts. I have energy, I’m rather giddy, and I have this all around sense of positivity I’m focusing on maintaining. From where did this come? I’m not one hundred percent sure, but I’m not complaining. Am I hypomanic? Maybe.
So, for those of you reading this, unfamiliar with the term, hypomanic is what would be considered a kind of out of the ordinary “high”. With happier traits that are a bit out of the normal character of someone with bipolar. Hypomania is mostly found in those with Bipolar II disorder, (the more depressive between Bipolar I and II). The media, when approaching said disorder tend to go with, you guessed it, the more extreme of the two, Bipolar I. I’m saying extreme, in that it’s a lot more pronounced in many ways such as it’s unmistakable mania. But enough of me stumbling through the differentiation. I have Bipolar II, and might be going through a (hypo)manic episode.
I must say, I find it a bit hard to discern if I am in fact in the throes of an episode. It just feels like happiness, what I assume, well, normal would feel like. Let me explain. Let’s say your average person has a baseline of five, with zero being void of energy, and likely a complete mess, and ten being insane level of happiness, high on life as it were. My baseline exists at about a two or a three, stick with me now. I often have to fight my way to that coveted level five, just to feel “normal”. As for feeling good, a six or a seven might make the average person feel kind of happy, but for me… a six or seven feels a bit closer to a ten. If that makes sense. I have a higher threshold to breach.
This is just a short little post I wanted to throw out there. A little bit of light-hearted banter. That, and though happiness is a beautiful thing, I have a lot more to say about the not-so-good things, I just have more experience with them I’m afraid. Well, that is all for now. Seeya later peeps.
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